Rye muffin, Siggi's yogurt, 1 x 1/2cup serving of nutty nuggets with smilk
200mg caf ~3pm, cheese melt on a roll
called apt re: parking stickers for new cars. They don't do anything without the VIN.
called new CU re: app status; let go and trusting the process at least until tomorrow afternoon
gave the commode a quick scrub
2 minutes in microwave to sanitize saturated cellulose sponge
rainy weather = feelin' blah/lazy
Transcribed some more 1993 journal pages. Realized that was 24 years ago, vs. my current age.
AAA Trip Tix / PDX - 14539 S Military Tr, Unit A, Delray Beach - just north of Atlantic
CarGurus - review Fit listings
Reviewed yesterday's thoughts about the characteristic ACoA/DF "emotion addiction". Particularly the observation that where the alcoholic doesn't feel normal without a drink or three to take the edge off, the emotion addict likewise feels unsettled, anxious, unable to function without a hit of fear, anger, disgust. I think that idea bears expansion or amplification. Having been habituated and conditioned by heavy drug use, the addict's body becomes physically dependent on it to stay functional. Take away the booze or oxy, and withdrawal may be medically life-threatening. The emotion addict's cognitive health is similarly shaped and distorted by constant fear/anger/shame until they need their fix regularly just to maintain a semblance of function. We learn to provoke and strum friends and loved ones to manufacture emotional situations on demand. We become easy prey to partisan division and targeted for slanted political agitprop ("outrage porn").
The analogy only goes so far, of course. Once a substance addict detoxes, they have to learn to live without their drug of choice. "Emotion addicts" don't have any corresponding hope of living entirely free of negative emotions after we "detox". The best we can hope for is to develop our skills and cognitive habits to recognize and correctly identify our feelings, and process them effectively, so as to lead with emotional intelligence instead of leading with the emotions themselves.