wed posted: Wed 2017-11-01 10:15:17 tags: healing
Another epic staff meeting survived.

I meant to report yesterday an emotional outburst that seemed to connect protein, caffeine and inner process. I started the day as I usually do, with a cup of coffee+cocoa. At work I had a 30g Rockin Refuel and another coffee. Around 2 or 3pm I took a caffeine pill. Not long after I started feeling like crying, for no apparent reson,. I think I was in the middle of a listen to Edgar Winter's "Frankenstein" on Youtube. I don't associate that song with any emotional charge, unless you count a somewhat drunken (and therefore almost certainly lonely) blog (or was it Facebook) post years back. ("play that funky music edgar winter frankenstein"?) I suppose a psychoanalyst would say "run with that association then", so maybe that's all there was to it.

It was a little over a year ago that I suspended counseling to see what I could learn from AlAnon/ACOA. One of the insights that I'm still unwrapping is that "processing feelings" is an emotional skill, not something that just happens if you're lucky that way and a mystery if not. On 2017-10-11 I jotted some specific notes about "how to process feelings". (I wasn't applying the "healing" tag consistently so I had to guess at key search phrases to find and add the entry into that context. "Take responsibility" worked like a charm.) It's a topic I need to return to in life's spiral curriculum, and there are certainly other valuable "how tos" to compare notes with. Today's perspective is from RecoveryFromAddictionOnline.com - How to Process Emotions and Feelings.

With that in mind... I think what I felt was just something residual coming unstuck and it was enough to identify it, accept and lean into it while it lasted, and let it pass.