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sat posted: Sat 2018-11-24 11:02:25 tags: healing
For the first couple weeks at this job, I managed to be punctual, but after that my arrival time slipped slowly - 5 minutes, 10 minutes, 15 minutes, lately often as much as 20-25 minutes late without comment. I justify it in my mind by not taking paid breaks and/or taking shorter lunches. At the end of the week, technically we're even. But this is a deal I've struck unilaterally, not by consensus. I consulted Dawn for help fixing this problem and she didn't have much more to offer than ACoA and "Inner... (...more)
sat posted: Sat 2018-11-17 11:28:31 tags: movies, healing
Watched "The Revenant" (2015) last night. I nodded off at times, fortunately, because the violence and its aftermaths rendered the whole story dismal, miserable and hopeless. Vengeance is, at best, a "broken" character motivation. There's a genre perhaps best exemplified by "I Spit on Your Grave" (1978, remade 2010) that I would call "revenge porn" if that phrase didn't already mean something else, and "Revenant" belongs to that genre. Wikipedia describes "I Spit on Your Grave" as a "rape-and-revenge explo... (...more)
tue posted: Tue 2018-09-11 06:45:44 tags: healing
put Ringcentral on home lappy and make sure drives etc. are available

Inc.: Science proves complaining is terrible for you say nothing of its effect on those around you

sat posted: Sat 2018-05-26 05:18:44 tags: citizenship, career, healing
Thu on the way back from counseling: fueled up at 2.849/gal, 240.8mi/9.627gal = 25.0mpg Fri eve: long nap after work, watched some Monk over meat-lover u-bake pizza. Updated account records before bed. ran dishwasher and emptied Sat: process all the notes Not sure what I had to say about moustache wax, but I jotted a note about that so there we are. Thu's counseling session focused mainly on practicing mindfulness to short-circuit negative self-talk and anxiety. * * * Who won on my 5/8 prima... (...more)
sun posted: Sun 2018-05-13 06:54:23 tags: healing
Another big theme in A.I. was the parent-child bond. Rather than over-explicate, suffice it to say it stirred some challenging feelings so close after the 1-year mark since Mom passed, and right before Mothers Day at that. Mothers Day was difficult last year. I suppose it will always be a little sad, but already not achingly so. Mom would not want us kids to get too mired in grief. How do you not get mired in grief? "Emotional resilience" sounds great but what does it mean? It's a constellation of cogni... (...more)