The prospective therapist replied, and I re-read the "thumbnail case history" I had written, and it became a pretty emotional moment. I was quite a fixture yesterday. I need to get out of the house and buy food and maybe some stuff to repair the broken flush arm in the commode tank and washers to hopefully repair the drippy shower and and and Maybe I should put pants on first. Or just stay in again. I had to move my car for the lawnmowing, so I checked mail while I was that presentable. The dis... (...more)

I had to review texts to see what exactly was said Monday, because it turned out we were not on the same page w/r/t relationship status. The downside is the mildly uncomfortable position of leaving the ball unreturned on the OKC conversation. It was not going to be a connection, 94% sure that, it's just a principle thing. The upside is - I can put my OKC acct back in mothballs. Perusing the Y!A Singles + Dating section got me thinking long recollections of fiancee #1 and how she fit the abuser profile. ... (...more)

Sent my follow-up message to the prospective therapist after 5pm so I don't expect progress there until Monday. Waiting for the court notification of discharge, already started receiving junk mail targeting new discharges - in this case, an official-looking "notice" that's really just an ad for new car financing with no credit check. Seems legit Not sure when I conked out; woke ~7:30. I dreamed something about being at a graduation party or similar with my 2nd fiancee and her parents, but somehow that m... (...more)

Left work late-ish last night, ~8:30? Arranged rent and picked up groceries on the way home. $3 each for Bolthouse mango protein (30g) drinks felt a little frivolous until I compared JD muffans (12g/$1.25 = 30g/$3.125). (For reference, a McD muffan is 17g/$2.79). The carb load is only a little concerning. Was super-tired by bedtime, slept hard, woke feeling stuffy at the 6:55 morning prayer reminder. First coffee, then a caf pill washed down with a Bolthouse on the commute. Discarded a couple exerci... (...more)

Dawdled at work until close to midnight, needed to make cheesy bolillos and stretch a little and answer yahoos to wind down for sleep. I don't think I actually slept until ~2AM. Still woke with the alarm. Instant and a caf pill. 2 PB sammiches ~1:15, call it 32g. Caffeine round two ~3pm. Updated accounts register. Yesterday I had some success with an hourly reminder to do a set of (half-angle) pushups, so I'll try that again today. It didn't happen hourly, since the reminder might sit uncycled indefinit... (...more)