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mon posted: Mon 2026-08-10 04:32:44 tags: n/a
snoozed ~30 past alarm
a bit past 7 caf, hydro surge

empty shwasher
car pymt

+100mg caf boost
wait 30m, vitamin + oo

gym 12:16 ~ 1:? hypertrophy 3 circuits. Distinct load regressions.
Back extension 3 x 12 x 210#. some reserve. 230, even 225# felt like poor form.
Lat pulldown 3 x 12 x 150#. prob some reserve. 160# felt like incomplete motion.
Leg press 10 x 375#, 10 x 360#; non-start on 3rd set at 360#. left it at no 3rd set.
Shoulder press 3 x 12 x 85#. Hard starts, but finished each set w/ some reserve.
ab crunch 10 x 230#, 12 x 220#, 12 x 230#. Felt like marginally incomplete motion at 230#.

chunk light tuna 2-srv can on steak roll w/a splash of cider vinegar: ~32g

Calorie budgeting
- Lowest-risk male BMI range is 27-28, not the traditional "normal" 18.5-24.9
- For a 69.5" subject, 190# is round and close enough to middle of 27-28 BMI
- Most subjects should never target below 1500 cal / day
- BMR factoring age, height, target weight and activity midway betw "light" and "moderate": 2450 cal
:: target the floor-limit daily calorie budget recommendation of 1500 cal
- 500 to 750 cal deficit is considered more manageable, sustainable, protective of lean muscle
:: target 1700 soft minimum to 1950 hard max daily cal budget
- calorie deficit also depresses BMR. Aggressive, extended calorie deficit budget aggravates that.
- Some cycling studies show modest offset of depressed BRM: e.g. 8 weeks deficit, 2 weeks balance
- hypertrophy training has peak synergy w/ cal deficit protocols; triggers muscle mass retention

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The adage "the perfect is the enemy of the good" has blipped my radar a few times recently. According to Wikipedia, Voltaire popularized it in 1770 as a French rendition of Italian proverb
il meglio è l'inimico del bene (It.)
... le mieux est l'ennemi du bien (Fr.)
literally "the best is the enemy of the good".

The sentiment is actually attested in French as early as 1726 in Montesquieu's "Pensées", with a more emphatic "mortal enemy". I suppose it shows Voltaire was more influential than Montesquieu.

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Healthy venting
- seeks consent, respects boundaries (time, listener's capacity)
- takes responsibility for emotional self-regulation
- goal/solution oriented and time-limited
- is open to advice, reframing, backburnering, perspective-taking, comforting
- simply naming feelings aloud, or polishing a story of feelings, can be a legit goal sometimes

Toxic dumping loops repetitively or expands scattershot, resisting advice etc.

When anxiety emerges without apparent trigger, treat physical symptoms rather than searching for a cause
- Conscious focus on slow, deep, regular breathing. "Square" breathing.
- Physically move. Walk, stretch, yawn to reset physical tension.
- Systematic relaxation. Relax your scalp. Face. Jaw. Neck. Shoulders. Upper arms. Lower arms. Hands. Etc.
- Sensory grounding. What do I hear, see, smell, taste, touch, am I warm or cold, is there a breeze etc.
- Self-care as "stimming": hot or cold face cloth, brush teeth, brush hair, lotion etc.
- Name the feeling. "I feel anxious, that's OK, and it's OK that I don't know why".

Chronic stress can form a feedback loop with physiological mechanisms like muscular tension, elevated neurotransmitters (cortisol, adrenaline, norepinephrine) and hypersensitised transmitter receptors. The sourcelessness is a reminder that feelings can be totally decoupled from external triggers. If I can restoke ancient anger and fear by ruminating on yesteryear's conflicts, I can also self-soothe with relived memories of times I felt gratitude, support, peace, safety.