"Why is the measure of love loss?" is the first line of Jeanette Winterson's novel, Written on the Body. Ms Winterson's work is indelibly associated with Sexing the Cherry - ergo, poisoned for me.

4/20 will mark six years since I quit smoking. And of course 5 months since I became single again. Of course. It's been long enough that my month-count hiccupped - for a day or two last week I thought it was already 5 months, that 4/20 would be 6 months.

I felt pretty bummed out this afternoon. Not nearly as bad as December-January. But far from good.